#Dontnormallydothisbut

I'm not the type of chick who you will always see on Twitter, Facebook, or any other social media sites saying:

"I love my man"

"I can't wait to see my boo"

"I could spend the rest of my life with him" or any of that other crap.

Blah, blah, blah. That's not my style. I'm pretty lo-key with everything I do especially when it comes to my relationships/dating. As it relates to the other women I really do not care about your trysts with your man. Especially when it's women I know personally who go through men like I go through books. Every guy you meet do not deserve a tweet or a FB update. Especially when your tweet or status update just read how much he got on your nerves or if your tweets and status updates were about a different man last week. *side Eye*

I tend to be a private person when it comes to my relationships. I'm like Janet. You wouldn't know I was married with a child until I was divorced or the child was graduating from college. I just don't like to share intimate information with people I don't know via social media. Shoot, sometimes I don't share information with my friends until AFTER things have happened.



Because I feel like singing...



Despite this 'soap box' I was just on I found myself tweeting last week how I understood why some women (emphasis on some ) tweet about their boo. It's a BIG difference between being overwhelmingly in love (or any other synonym ) and just talking just to talk.

Maybe I'm a 'hater'. Maybe I'm jealous of the woman who tweet or update their status messages ALL THE TIME about their boo. Maybe I want their lives. (Do You feel my sarcasm???)

My guy isn't new to my life. We met in 08 because we were neighbors. We dated for awhile but things didn't work out. We remained friends but just went on with our lives.

We're dating again. It's very scary for me. We're trying to see if we can get it right this time. We're older more mature...

Despite the fear, I feel so good. I feel so good. When I see him the little girl in me wants to jump up and down. But I been here done this before with him. I want to give my all and my everything but fear stops me. Fear of the unknown. Fear of being hurt. Fear of disappointment. Sometimes I want to shout from the rooftop how much I love this man. Sometimes I want to cover my head because I am scared to open my eyes and see what's going on.

I love this man so much and have for almost as long as we've known each other. Even when I was in another relationship I loved him. Knowing myself and my weaknesses I didn't talk to him at all while I was in that relationship. I am not a cheater and I wasn't going to jeopardize my morals or values.

When I say "#dontnormallydothisbut" I really don't. However, I did at one point find myself jumping on the 'relationship' bandwagon because that's what everybody else was doing. Honestly, I don't care about you and yours as long as it doesn't interfere with me and mine.

For me to tweet something about a boo or to write a blog post is out of the norm for me. But sometimes you meet people who make you feel so good you want to tell everybody! !

I've never felt this way as an adult. I've dated multiple guys. I've sexed multiple guys but to feel like this is new to me. To be willing to sacrifice and compromise your dreams and goals to experience love is unthinkable for me but I'll do it for love, I'll do it for him.

Real love!! Unadulterared love!! Not that "we just met on Saturday and I'm in love" love or "Your sex is so good, I think I can love you forever" love.

REAL LOVE

A love that makes you want to let down your guard and share all your thoughts, feelings, emotions, joys, pains, disappointments, EVERYTHING.

I love this man *blushes profusely* I really do. Writing this blog post has really put me out there. I feel very vulnerable and naked but I just wanted to say how I felt. I know love isn't perfect. There will be trials and tribulations; ups and downs but I'm willing to go through it all with him.

I hope things work out and if they don't *deep breath* I know I gave my all. I know I let my guard down and the real Stacy Australia showed not my representative. I know my love for him is authentic and genuine without any reservations.

So I '#dontnormallydothisbut' I love that man and I wanted to write about it.

I have to end this with a quote from one of my favorite books/favorite love story ....

"So her soul crawled out from its hiding place"

Their Eyes Were Watching God- Zora Neale Hurston

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